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Will I always be alone?

I'm 21 year old and I have Dialogic CP. I use both crunches and a wheelchair depending on the situation. Sometimes I just don't understand the way things are.  I ask myself all the time: Why did the Lord make me they way I am?  What did I ever do to deserve to have this disability.   Sometimes at night I cry because I can't take it anymore.  I feel so excluded and so alone. Now don't get me wrong, I do have a few friends.  But they only seem to be my friends around school. And since that is the case, then are they really my friends?   I never get invited to go to parties or to the movies by anybody.  I've never been voted as class favorite in any category, just a who mess of things that everybody around me get to do and I'm excluded in one way or another for one reason or another.

Every time I think I've found someone special, I end up taking it the wrong way and then that just makes it worse. For example: I asked a girl out to my high school prom out in the hallway one morning before class.  To my surprise, she said "YES".    However, during class, she passed a note up to me saying that her best friend just told her that she (her best friend) had set her (the girl I asked) with a really cute guy and that if she decided not to go to the dance with the guy that her best friend set her up with, that she would of course go with me.  This happened after she already had said "YES" to me.  Well, needless to say, I decided to go ahead and wait in hopes that she would go out with me because I really really liked her.

However, that never happened and I finally gave up on her.  For some reason I was determined to find someone to go to my prom with.  I refused to be the only one that showed up myself.  However, I wanted to have someone to share the experience with, not just to say I had a date.

I ended up asking this 9th grader out to the dance which was unusual for an 11th grader to do with the teenage social status and all those things about being in high school.    When she said YES, I was ecstatic.  But that was soon diminished when a few friends I had said that she was just going to use me to get into the dance.  Of course, with being so excited about having a real date to a dance, I told them NO, that she would never do that to me.

Well, during the dance (really before the actual dance part), we had talked and taken pictures and everything.  Just before the dance part started she said she wanted to go freshen up first.  I waited and waited and waited.  Finally after about 20 minutes I sent someone in there restroom to check on her to make sure everything was okay.  She was gone.

It turned out that she actually went to go call her sister to come pick her up. She had done what everybody else told me what she would do and how she would treat me. When I ran into the following Monday morning, I asked her why she decided to leave and why did she not tell me she wanted to.  Her excuse was that she didn't think the crippled people could dance so she saw no reason for her to even stay.  Needless to say, I was very very very hurt.  All she ever did was laugh to her friends about it.

Am I slated to have my relationships, if any, to turn out like this?  I'm tired to being left out. laughed at, and feeling so alone.  People ask me all the time why it always seems that disabled people only seem to hang out with disabled people.  Did it ever occur to some of you "normal" people that at least when we are in a group or around other disabled people that its because they don't disrespect, criticizes, or ditch us on dates. We respect each other, which is more then I can say for a lot of non-disabled people treat me.  I'm not saying that all non-disabled people are this way, but most of you are.  All we ask to be treated just as equally as you.

I'm sorry this is so long, but I feel I have to let the world know how I feel about this. I'm hoping that through this and anybody I may meet though the web will understand and see me as a person and not a person with a disability.